修煉愛情 Practice Love 時之繁花 微電影

 

If this comes true, who will you choose to hold on to once again?

Will it gives you comfort knowing that you can hold on to the person once again, or will it gives you extreme sadness knowing that you can only hold on to these memories?
Will it help you to be stronger, or will it breaks you down again and again in the darkness of the night?

 

To you,

I was thinking of things and couldn’t really sleep. I hope you don’t mind me sharing with you, I’ll really love to be able to share with you things, kinda like for you to understand me more as well. And of course, if you have some inner thoughts or feelings, I hope of you to be able to share with me too.

It came across my mind that I’ve been having troubles with relationships. You, my mother, manager, friends, etc. Seems like from young till now, I aren’t able to manage a relationship well. That’s why I felt and don’t feel comfortable enough to put anyone in the close friends or BFF category. And perhaps it’s true, I’m afraid to be vulnerable, I’m afraid to be hurt, thus I choose to push people away. And you my dear, you felt the most because you were the closest to me, still.

I thought about why I love watching the return of superman show so much. I agree, it’s not productive, it’s just a reality show with dads and kids. But it warms my heart so so much. It fills my heart with so much love that I crave for. I love the triplets alot, and I’ve found the reason why. They are being brought up in a environment full of love, care and trust. And compliments. I kinda understand true love more from this dad too. He never expects anything from his kids. He’ll just be very happy when they can do something and shower then with kisses and compliments. It’s so real, and I think that’s what true love is. Putting in so much love, and not expecting anything as results. He taught me the importance of acknowledging and complimenting too.

And I think that is a solution to all relationship issue. Esp between us, we always felt unheard from each other. And if we could make that conscious effort to acknowledge and say that i hear you, you’re unhappy, and apologize for it in a nice tone. And make an effort to remember to not to do the same again, It will soften the atmosphere so much, I truly believe in that. And there wouldn’t be a need for us to go back to that same issue again in the future, because we were not felt clearly heard from each other.

Watching the show, makes me feel like having a baby. I’ll want to be that father who love and trust the triplets. Who shower the babies with compliments to let them know that they’re being love. And compliment them for slowly improving and being better growing up. All in all, I want the baby, with the husband I love, and whom love me too. Don’t take it too strongly, I honestly didn’t pray that it has to be you. I’m still conflicted, but I know I want someone who fits that above criteria at the end of the day. Though some parts of me is still hoping that it could be you.

I don’t really expect a reply or respond to this. After all its just my thoughts voicing out, and piecing things together. And understanding myself more, and learning to accept why I do the things I do…

Came to realize why I have been sleeping late.
Talking and concentrating on one single person is so draining.
Take 2 hours each, say 3 people a day.
Then i reached home, I NEED to stone.
Do some more work here and there it’s already 1am plus.

Will have to reschedule my timetable. Need more breaks I feel.
Stay connected. Hwaiting!

doing stupid things when i need to wake up 7 hours later

wants to catch up on my dramas.
Running Man and You’re Beautiful TW version but never have the time.

but I have all the time in the world to waste on doing rubbish things like blogging and not doing what’s important to sleep since i have to wake up early. omg. someone just slap some sense into me.

NO, i’m kidding on the slapping part.
I’ll hate you if you do that.

Wanna re read Skip Beat manga too.
oh my Kyoko X Ren OTP!!!!!!!!
love love love the heel siblings they are so cute.
please get together already!
200 chapters into the manga and when you both are so obviously into each other.
please remove that irritating Sho Fuwa out of the picture.

I miss Dota2 addiction.
my pandaren brewmaster i miss you big bear!
miss your ulti!

wants to blog suddenly.

these twenty days that you’re not around, i hope i can grow to be independent to take my own initiatives and to do a good job.
whether or not i’ll be in good hands that’s besides the point.

no one to nag me boohoooo. X)

“你想過普通的生活,就會遇到普通的挫折。你想過上最好的生活,就一定會遇上最強的傷害。這世界很公平,你想要最好,就一定會給你最痛……能闖過去,你就是贏家。所謂成功,並不是看你有多聰明,也不需要你出賣自己,而是看你能否笑着渡過難關。”

Tough times don’t last, tough man do!

Aja aja hwaiting! 

of roses, rings & flowers

http://sg.entertainment.yahoo.com/blogs/singapore-showbiz/runaway-brides-singapore-janice-story-part-1-035439074.html

http://sg.entertainment.yahoo.com/blogs/singapore-showbiz/runaway-brides-singapore-picking-pieces-part-two-104152986.html

“We were so kancheong (in a hurry) to get a house, because the wait is so long and we kept hearing people say that they balloted many times but could not get a flat, even in a lousy location.”

this news makes me ponder about what is being ready or not ready?
Is there anything that will makes you suddenly feels like, Yes I wanna get married to this guy?
Even after deciding to get a flat, planning for the wedding & all till the last minute you can be not be any bit ready for it?

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